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[26 Jan 2006|02:38am] I love this journal to bits and I miss it a lot. I just felt the need to post this. Dunno why... Catch y'all back at "the eyes are blind". [don't go that way!]

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons... [30 Sep 2005|03:59pm] I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I'm at peace with myself I've been burdened with blame Trapped in the past for too long I'm movin' on.... /2 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

[29 Sep 2005|03:30pm] I just burnt myself on purpose and it felt good. /4 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

[27 Sep 2005|10:07pm] So the last link to Poppy Joe died today. Ahnie is a mess and Momma is not far behind her. Rest In Peace Murphy Dog. [don't go that way!]

[21 Sep 2005|10:07pm] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11one11!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 Holy bajeebus. LOST was...liek whoa. /3 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

An open note. Nothing to Hide. [21 Sep 2005|03:11pm] You said I did not have to reply- and honestly, I wish I'd stuck to my guns and not checked my e-mail/updated. I find I cannot put the past behind me. I am sorry for whatever hurt you suffered, because I felt it too. I am doubly sorry that I still feel it was a justified reaction. As well as trifold sorry that I feel the only reason you are extending the branch is to get your property returned. Forgive this mere mortals misgivings, but I highly doubt a word of that was heartfelt. In fact, I do not think I friendship means very much to you in the long run. And you cannot begrudge me this feeling... you tossed away our friendship like trash. And you treated me as such. If this is what you view as petty and childish....well, then, so I am. But I will return your property. Name the time and place. Acquaintances remain but friends... never the same. In other news.... I find my schooling is too wrapped up in the blasted internet for any hiatus to be fruitful as of now. Oh well. Geek internet addicts unite! LOST tonight. I.cannot.wait. And for those who haven't caught up, I believe there will be a catchup episode airing before the premiere. /6 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

[16 Sep 2005|01:01pm] I think I rather prefer having an online journal that no one that can hurt me reads. I might continue updating this one...I might not. [don't go that way!]

[09 Sep 2005|11:46pm] Jessica had her baby and Morgan is back. Life at work amuses me. 1245 people rejected me hardcore tonight. Only 47 signed up for the damned FREE card. I would be hurt if I actually...you know, cared. And now to watch some recorded episodes of LOST in preparation for the upcoming new season. to my LOSTies- anybody gone to the oceanic-air.com website thinger? Wow. [don't go that way!]

Howl's Moving Castle makes me want to Talk to Hats. [09 Sep 2005|11:58am] Okay...so random question but since I just finished rereading the books- Was the movie Howl's Moving Castle anything like the book(s)? Will it ruin the magic of the books to see said movie? C'mon lend me a hand. My mother refuses to read the books and can thus only tell me the movie was "good". /2 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

[07 Sep 2005|03:20pm] Coupling makes me laugh. *dies* [don't go that way!]

Just a typical teenage television update [06 Sep 2005|10:00pm] I am now officially caught up and ready for the season premier of Gilmore Girls. ...and Supernatral. Wow, that looks cool. /2 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

RENT [05 Sep 2005|09:21pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] Moo with me! /9 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

Meh. Should be on onnesaitjamais, but I dun feel like moving it. [03 Sep 2005|07:58pm] Deal with the rantyness cause I just can't work up the energy to move it to onnesaitjamais I am many different people. I am a student, an honest dedicated worker... Studying, answering, participating with a smile. Soaking up language and knowledge as a sponge. I am a slacker. I sit at home staring at the wall lost in my own little world. I never clean, I never help out. I just...exist. I am a creator of worlds. I write their fates out in great detail. I create people, times, situations only to kill them with disinterest and neglect. I am God of my own self. I am the beginning and end of my will, my life, my motivation. I am a sinner. I commit crimes against the Christian God because I am confused, lost, searching.... but rebellious. Unwilling to be controlled by an invisible entity. Wanting to believe, yet so determined not to. I am a part-time wage slave and proud of it. I've paid my dues and done my best to be the best. I am a friend. A good friend...a great friend. A therapist...but I am overlooked pushed aside. Because friendship is no good these days. In today's society friendship is only acquired if there is reciprocality. I gave and gave...and received veritable shit in return. But never, never should you point this out. The slings and arrows will have you dead in mere seconds. I am confused, hurt, slain, lost, sick, well, happy, content, creative.... But for now, for me, I just am. And that's good. That's great. That's just what I need. [don't go that way!]

[02 Sep 2005|08:36pm] Je suis malade. I watched Bride and Prejudice, then went to bed....for like 10 minutes. Couldn't stand not being able to breathe so now I'm watching The Jacket. Adrian Brody is....wow. I'm ssssiiiicccckkkkk *dies* [don't go that way!]

My night....of DASTER! [01 Sep 2005|11:01pm] ( SHOOT! This is big!! ) This sums up my night. Note to self, going out with Joe Christie and Will is dangerous to my mental health- and thus must be done more often. /2 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

Gas. [01 Sep 2005|08:55am] So, I filled up my gas tank on Tuesday. I drove to school and to the cinema. On Wednesday I drove to school. Now those trips rarely use much gas, so last night when every gas station in town was full of angry people waiting to fill up, I avoided all that and just stayed home thinking I have plenty. Plus, my mom had gone to pick up my brothers and drop off some other kids and filled up her car while out. Or so I thought. No, she just took my car. So now, I'm down to half a tank and she tells me to find somewhere that isn't closed to fill up. BLIMEY! I did farking fill up....*shakes head* and my paycheck is already going towards my credit card without passing go. I really don't need to add another 30-40 dollar charge for gas I DIDN'T USE! And now I feel selfish cause here I am ranting about 40 dollars for gas which I could easily pay and there are people still in Louisiana who didn't have insurance, money, cars, any means of protecting their assets and safely leaving the state. Pooh. [don't go that way!]

[30 Aug 2005|10:08pm] Holy fucking hell! Elizabethtown rocked times twenty five BILLION! Which is a lot of millions, to quote Mr. Bloom. Wow. I cannot even form coherent sentences. Just trust me when I say that Elizabethtown is a MUST SEE! [don't go that way!]

[28 Aug 2005|10:30pm] [ mood | touched ] [ music | "Skin (Sarabeth)" Rascal Flatts ] Listening to "Skin (Sarabeth)" has gotten me all teary. Its truly a wonderful song. And to go with the mood, a RENT quotes... You always said how lucky you were that we were all friends. But it was us, baby, who were the lucky ones. Ohhhh... and one to sum up my social and job front "Coming up next, vampire welfare queens who are compulsive bowlers... Oh my God, what am I doing?" /4 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

I'm a sheep.... Baaaa... [23 Aug 2005|09:37am] ( The Random Question Meme! ) /1 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

[22 Aug 2005|02:25pm] Prof Guglielmi (French professor) is the fourth Tortuga Twin. No..really, the similarities are scary. ADDITION: I have an interview at Starbucks. God, I'm so embarrased. My phone skills suck times twenty. But yeah, first interview on Thursday. History and Theatre tomorrow. Hair appointment at 2, paycheck (??)/Scheduleness at Regal, then homework. Yay for planned out days. /1 would have gone straight to the castle/ [don't go that way!]

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